At noon, darkness came over the whole land until three in the afternoon. And at three in the afternoon Jesus cried out in a loud voice, "Eloi, Eloi, lema sabachthani?" (which means "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?").
When we truly surrender to God there is a time of darkness and despair, when we feel out of control and fearful, not knowing whether or not God is there. Surrendering our control means turning away from it, and completely abiding in trust that God will deliver us. Jesus’ obedience on the cross was complete abandonment to God’s plan, regardless of the inevitable pain He knew He would endure. There is pain in the sacrifice. We will experience suffering when we truly let go of control and rely upon God. It may seem like we are alone in the suffering and that God has left us, but know that it is a time when God is testing our sincerity. Are you relying on Him, calling out to Him, when you feel like He is not there?
Surrender rises above emotional feeling. It is an unwavering trust that believes God is present and will sustain me, even when I am fearful because I don’t know His plan.
Almighty, Ever Present God, sometimes I have failed to truly believe that Your will is greater than my own. I have been reluctant to cry out to You in my darkness, and in my pain I have turned away from You because I believed You did not care for me. Father, forgive me. Your Word tells me that You will never forsake me. Help me to abandon myself to You, and to endure the pain I may face because I am no longer controlling the outcome. Strengthen my faith and create in me a desire to live in complete surrender to You. Amen.